I woke up knowing the answer to questions that have evaded me for far too long and all day I wept. Tears slipped into my coffee, soaked my chilaquiles, poured out in twisted words my favorite empty book, wetted fingers at little found treasures, made pretty the children’s beds, spiced their supper by and by…then, they raged in volcanic like swaths of hot down my cheeks as two foreigners surrounded the car with words and threats that bring a vulnerable woman to her knees. Through the tears I stung back them mother fuckers cock fucking bitch mother fuckers of humans parading around looking down shaming me? But now I’m here in a gilded suite with a precious babe and the constant pat of ocean lapping at my seams – I’ll let it. I’ll listen. I’ve never heard you at night the putter pattern of rushing, receding your loving your never leaving the sound of your open mouth breadth keeping me from the edge of sleeping don’t forget me come morning dear don’t leave me here there where I was I’ve seen enough. Raw is the wicked part of me that too shall pass+